That is what I thought during my entire 5 mile run today.
My nose dripped constantly. I even had to wipe it on my tank top.
Over and over again.
Did I mention I had to do this constantly? For 5 long, sweaty miles?
I also thought…
I should have eaten more before I ran because I feel really weak.
This blister on my heel really hurts.
Man, the sun is super hot today. Probably gonna get a sunburn.
I have a stomach cramp.
My knee hurts.
My hip hurts.
My heart hurts.
Why did I wear wedgie underwear today?
Ya, pretty much every excuse in the book popped into my head today when I went out to attempt my first 5 mile run.
Running sucked today. Plain and simple. I felt like crap during the whole thing.
What happened to my runner’s high I finally felt last weekend for the first time? Gone already??
If you are reading my blog for motivation or inspiration, you are probably wondering what the hell I am doing writing this downer, complaint-ridden post.
You wanna know why?
‘Cause I was more proud of myself when I finished my run this week, feeling like crap,
than last week when when I finished and felt amazing!
Because it is ALWAYS HARDER TO FINISH SOMETHING WHEN YOU ARE HATING DOING IT!!
It’s true though, isn’t it?
I mean, I’m not proud when I do something easy and enjoyable.
If I sit and watch a tv show, I feel no pride. It required no effort. I laughed and enjoyed myself.
If I were to clean for a half hour instead, I would probably be really proud of myself for accomplishing that task. There is nothing fun about it. I don’t particularly care for cleaning toilets. But when I am done, I feel good for having done it inspite of all that.
Just like my run today.
and I am proud.
5 miles in 52 minutes and 47 seconds.
Oh sidenote: I made brownies for a friend tonight and will be delivering them tomorrow. This means that they will be in my apartment for a great many hours, taunting me and calling my name.
I did lick the bowl and spoon when I was done which I am not thrilled with, but I do have extra calories today so I am not beating myself up about it.
I am hoping I have enough strength tonight, and tomorrow before I drop them off, to not eat any of the actual brownies.
I will be VERY PROUD of myself
because staying away from these:
will be very hard!!!