Currently they are in the oven.
Typically this would mean I was preparing to binge.
But not today.
I don’t feel it.
I don’t know if it is a leftover high from my run yesterday.
I don’t know if it is because I have logged and stayed within my calories everyday for the last 2 weeks.
I’m not sure what it is, but I know that…
I should probably back up and explain something here.
I love to bake. I love batter. I love dough. I love cookies, cakes, muffins…you name it.
Anything that goes in and out of an oven is a friend of mine.
Or an enemy as the case may be.
Usually, my MO is that I bake when I am in the mood to overindulge and really binge. Sometimes I do it when I am at a low…but lots of times I do it when I am at a high. And I “test” myself. And always fail. I don’t go into it thinking or saying that I am going to splurge. But somewhere deep in the back of my mind, I know it. And it happens everytime.
And once I start, I can’t stop…I’m like that with just about everything…as evidenced:
But this time feels different.
I actually think I am making these banana bread muffins because they will be a semi-healthy snack to have.
I chose the healthiest ingredients.
I counted out the calories for each carefully measured component.
I intend to have one with a mug of hot cocoa today (its cold and rainy here again – ugh) and wrap and freeze the rest.
I sometimes write this blog hoping that my story will inspire others and I’ll get millions of readers who want to hear what I have to say.
Other times, it is just for me. An outlet. A way for me to write my thoughts about where I am in my own journey. And a place for me to remind myself that I just may be stronger than I think I am.
Today is one of those days.
The timer just went off…here we go.
Bring it on banana bread.