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My New Running Crew

I finally ran my first race in about 6 months.
I also have corralled enough girls to run with me to finally feel like I have a running group again!

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I was sick for the whole week before the run with a cold/cough and had not run in 11 days…so my time of 28:06 was not disappointing in the least. 9 minute miles are what I consider a good pace…not my absolute fastest but good.
What made me unhappy about how I’d run this race was not my time…
But more how I felt running it.
I started out waaaay too fast and ran an 8:20 first mile.
And then died.
The final two miles, I felt weak and tired. My lungs hurt. People were catching me…
And passing me by.
It was a struggle…and not as enjoyable.
The last race I’d run in October was like this too.
Out too fast and died too early.
I want to be the one passing people….not the other way around.
It’s very defeating.
Doesn’t feel good.
It makes me want to train harder next time.
It makes me want to figure out how to run a race and feel good again.

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My Banana, My Nemesis

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It looks like an ordinary banana, but it is my enemy.
(yes, I know it’s very brown…I think they taste the best that way!!)

But this banana stares me in the face the second I put it on my desk in the morning

Until the moment I eat it.

My problem is…typically, if I have access to my food, I polish it off.
Kinda like climbing Mount Everest-
just because it’s there.

So typically if I bring a snack to school it is gone by 8am (I arrive by 7:50).

But this banana is designated as my after school snack…especially on days like today when I’m going to help out with my Girls on the Run team practice immediately after work. I know I’ll be starving when I get home at around 5 if I last ate my lunch at 11:15.

So it is definitely in my best interest not to eat it until 3:00 when I skip out to go to practice.

But it taunts me all day.

So I will consider it a victory

every day

that it is still there at 3:00.

Sounds like a small victory, but for me it’s huge.

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Sweat is Beautiful

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I’m really proud of our workouts we are doing twice a week…I’m usually dripping with sweat when we’re done.
And I love that feeling when it’s not even from a cardio day…but our weights day.
I’m still finding it hard to convince my friends that lifting heavier weights is not going to bulk them up…especially when we’re doing a cardio type circuit training to build muscle strength.

I always have to laugh and I want to tell them how
hard people have to work
how much effort it takes
how heavy my husband lifts at the gym
and the amount of calories he needs to consume
In order to build the muscle he builds.
If it was as easy as benching 20 lb dumbbells, 20 times, twice a week
we’d certainly be surrounded by a lot more buff men!

But old myths die hard…and I can tell deep down, they still are picturing themselves with big bulging muscles!

Anyway, I’ve had one solid week of being back on track…so blogging about it definitely is helping.
Keeps me focused.
Keeps me positive.

This beautiful weather isn’t hurting my positive outlook either! ūüôā

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Consistency Somewhere

So I had another good day. I’m not going to dissect it because sometimes that can trigger me for whatever reason…if I’m doing well. But I was happy.
One thing that has been going very well for awhile now is my exercising. Since I moved back 7 months ago, one of my friends from high school and I have been very consistent workout buddies. We workout in the morning at 5:10 everyday and we do 3 days of running (4 miles outside, even in 10 degree weather bundled up in multiple layers) and the other two days we do circuit training in my home gym in my new house.
It’s just a start, but so far we have a treadmill, some yoga mats, medicine balls, a bench and dumbbells from 5 lbs up to 25 lbs:

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We try to mix in cardio with weights for a complete body workout…and we usually end up sore (the good kind!) so we must be (hopefully) doing something right!
For example, today we did
-goblet squats
-bench press
-21’s with dumbbells
-weighted side lunges
-a great ab exercise where you extend your legs, then bring in your knees while doing a crunch while bringing a medicine ball up from behind your head (that one kills!)
-and sprints on the treadmill mixed in.

We’ve even had other girls ask to join in our workouts which is cool!
As I focus on the positives, our workout schedule/routine is definitely one of them! I have never been this consistent and it feels great.
But I am now proof positive that you can exercise a ton and still gain weight if you don’t eat the right kinds of food in the right kind of portions…so now I am off to find a balance between the two!

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Today was a Good Day

I’m feeling a little Ice Cube-ish tonight…I gotta say it was a good day.

3 meals-no snacks,
healthy choices from start to finish,
a great workout this morning,
feeling in control,
Played outside with my daughter on a beautiful and sunny afternoon,

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and my new, 5 day old nephew finally came home tonight and I got some good snuggles in!

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I’m feeling good…and happy that I have one good day under my belt…
Grateful for what I have…
One day at a time.

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Day One

Not perfect….
That’s about the only way I can describe today.
I slept through my workout
(and let’s be honest, I heard my alarm…I totally could have gotten up),
I ate five 50 calorie packs of pretzels,
I stayed up way too late last night so I was exhausted today
But today wasn’t a total bust.
I said my morning prayers and thanked god for all the great things in my life.
I got some adorable new pictures of my new nephew

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My husband told me how pretty I looked when I left for work.
No meltdowns from my kids at school.

A lot of things went well that I just don’t want to ignore.

I can focus on the small failures areas needing improvement or I can focus on the positives…and it is all up to me.

One life…I am the only one who can choose how it will be lived.
Damn that brick wall. Get out of my way.

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Diving In

I have had a tough time lately. I’ve been struggling for sure…but at the same time, things have never been better.

My husband¬†and I¬†bought¬†our first¬†house…

Three days ago, I got a new nephew:

My beautiful daughter is more adorable and lovable than ever:

I love my new job.

I have been working out 5 days a week, running 12 miles and doing 2 strength building workouts for the week.

But I am bingeing more than ever…

and I cannot figure out how/why.

 

I had today what I call a “last hurrah”…

in short, one last binge.

I go back and forth always trying to decide if a last binge is actually helpful or hurtful.

I always convince myself that I need the last hurrah…need to get it out of my system.

But part of me feels that the last hurrah is just me taking a big deep breath

before I dive in…

before I start eating healthy and being in control again…

and eventually I am going to have to  come up for air again.

And then what?

 

Deep down I know it is harmful in many ways.

I mean, it is one more binge.

It is that much more bad food going into my body.

It adds fuel to the fire as I indulge in my vice yet again.

 

I want to begin again…

for what feels like the hundredth time

and just like when I quit drinking almost 9 years ago,

as frustrated as I feel when I fail time and time again,

it’s all about trying one more time….

and I can hope and pray that maybe this time will be THE time.

 

As I go through the steps for Overeaters Anonymous in an attempt to gain control,

I realize that I actually need to give up control in order to heal.

I will once again be documenting my journey here…as I know that there are others out¬†there who will relate to what I am going through.

And I will start by taking the time each day to acknowledge what I am truly grateful for today.

I am grateful to God for the life that I get to lead…

for this beautiful view out my window each day:

my ridiculously supportive and understanding husband who somehow does not think I’m crazy, even after watching me go through this vicious¬†cycle time and time again,

my gorgeous daughter,

our continued health and happiness,

an extended family who would do anything for us,

a job I love,

and the good sense to keep starting over.

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