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Happy Easter! (a bit late!)

We had the best spring break this year and we didn’t even go anywhere!
I just spent all my time with my now big girl…who at 21 months is now way closer to 2 than 1.

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She had the best time on Easter and a little diva as evidenced below:

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(her wardrobe change for our after dinner walk!)
She is in such an amazing phase and so much fun! It was hard to go back to work this week after an amazing break with her…I just love her so much!
Whether it is her saying, “God blesh you, momma,” when I sneeze
or
the fact that she is becoming a snuggler for the first time and I cannot get enough of it…
My husband and I find our hearts melting at the things she says and does all day long!
I read a great article today about how some parents have a negative attitude about how hard it is to raise children…and I am so thankful that my husband and I are both able to find the joy and beauty in it each day…
Because it truly is the most rewarding thing I’ve ever done!

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Today was a Good Day

I’m feeling a little Ice Cube-ish tonight…I gotta say it was a good day.

3 meals-no snacks,
healthy choices from start to finish,
a great workout this morning,
feeling in control,
Played outside with my daughter on a beautiful and sunny afternoon,

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and my new, 5 day old nephew finally came home tonight and I got some good snuggles in!

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I’m feeling good…and happy that I have one good day under my belt…
Grateful for what I have…
One day at a time.

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Day One

Not perfect….
That’s about the only way I can describe today.
I slept through my workout
(and let’s be honest, I heard my alarm…I totally could have gotten up),
I ate five 50 calorie packs of pretzels,
I stayed up way too late last night so I was exhausted today
But today wasn’t a total bust.
I said my morning prayers and thanked god for all the great things in my life.
I got some adorable new pictures of my new nephew

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My husband told me how pretty I looked when I left for work.
No meltdowns from my kids at school.

A lot of things went well that I just don’t want to ignore.

I can focus on the small failures areas needing improvement or I can focus on the positives…and it is all up to me.

One life…I am the only one who can choose how it will be lived.
Damn that brick wall. Get out of my way.

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Diving In

I have had a tough time lately. I’ve been struggling for sure…but at the same time, things have never been better.

My husband and I bought our first house…

Three days ago, I got a new nephew:

My beautiful daughter is more adorable and lovable than ever:

I love my new job.

I have been working out 5 days a week, running 12 miles and doing 2 strength building workouts for the week.

But I am bingeing more than ever…

and I cannot figure out how/why.

 

I had today what I call a “last hurrah”…

in short, one last binge.

I go back and forth always trying to decide if a last binge is actually helpful or hurtful.

I always convince myself that I need the last hurrah…need to get it out of my system.

But part of me feels that the last hurrah is just me taking a big deep breath

before I dive in…

before I start eating healthy and being in control again…

and eventually I am going to have to  come up for air again.

And then what?

 

Deep down I know it is harmful in many ways.

I mean, it is one more binge.

It is that much more bad food going into my body.

It adds fuel to the fire as I indulge in my vice yet again.

 

I want to begin again…

for what feels like the hundredth time

and just like when I quit drinking almost 9 years ago,

as frustrated as I feel when I fail time and time again,

it’s all about trying one more time….

and I can hope and pray that maybe this time will be THE time.

 

As I go through the steps for Overeaters Anonymous in an attempt to gain control,

I realize that I actually need to give up control in order to heal.

I will once again be documenting my journey here…as I know that there are others out there who will relate to what I am going through.

And I will start by taking the time each day to acknowledge what I am truly grateful for today.

I am grateful to God for the life that I get to lead…

for this beautiful view out my window each day:

my ridiculously supportive and understanding husband who somehow does not think I’m crazy, even after watching me go through this vicious cycle time and time again,

my gorgeous daughter,

our continued health and happiness,

an extended family who would do anything for us,

a job I love,

and the good sense to keep starting over.

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Lost and Gone…but not forever

I’m still here…but I’ve been kind of lost. I find when I am most in control, I’m talking about it…in other words, blogging about it.
I love my new job.
I love my new house.
I love being close to my family again in NY.
I’ve gained 15 pounds.
So with that, I will be back.

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Getting it Right…(and triathlon news!)

It’s funny that when I am off track, I rarely post about it.

I’m not sure why, since that was the reason I started this blog in the first place…to work through the tough times on this journey.

Of course the last few days, I have been back on track…

so here I am trying to analyze what was wrong.

 I’m trying to figure out what was different during those few weeks when I couldn’t seem to get it together

and now.

Some things I have noticed that I need to do

in order to feel in control:

1) count calories

sample of part of my day

It is plain and simple. If I do it, I eat what I want and without guilt. I still have a focus on healthy choices, but if I choose to measure out a 1/2 cup of low fat ice cream for dessert, I can. Without guilt.

I hope to someday progress to the point where I can reign myself in without counting calories, but I can recognize that I am not there yet.

So it is a long term goal.

But in the meantime,

counting calories is a must for me.

2) Some type of physical activity in the morning before I sit and eat my breakfast.

It sounds crazy, but if I eat breakfast before I complete my workout, 9 times out of 10, those are the days I typically get off track eating-wise

(disclaimer: this is not counting the days I need to really fuel up for a run or something…I definitely eat something beforehand on those mornings)

For me, this is definitely more symbolic than anything else.

It’s as if I say to myself, ahhh, I can sit and eat my breakfast instead of completing my workout this morning. No biggie.

But the problem is for me, it is a biggie.

It is a sign of giving up on working out for the day.

Not sure why that is…

and again

a long term goal will be to

be able to eat some breakfast prior to exercising and

NOT

have that be the kiss of workout-death.

But until that time, early morning workouts are the way its gotta be for now.

The good news is, even when my eating has been off, I have been exercising very regularly, if not every day.

So those are my conclusions for now…but I am sure I will continue to analyze both the good times and bad times in order to continue making progress in the right direction!

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Unrelated sidenote:

Here is my “Sweat is Beautiful” tribute to Jen over at Prior Fat Girl:

This was after a VERY HARD 3.1 mile, morning run the other day.

I felt wiped afterwards…but in a good way.

In an I-just-gave-it-everything-I’ve-got kind of way.

And it showed.

I was drenched. 🙂

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Oh…and in other news:

I signed up for my first triathlon today!

The entry form has officially been sent in.

I am nervous as all hell.

It is in less than 2 weeks, but I am pretty sure I can do it.

PLUS

…I just bought a bike this weekend (oh you know, just semi-essential to triathlon training when you haven’t ridden a bike in years!!)

Actually, my husband came home and surprised me with a new bike after work on Friday!

We had been looking at bikes for me together, but the actual buying of the bike and bringing it home to me was totally unexpected! And he went with a nicer bike (a hybrid) than I had even thought we were going to get…so

SCORE!

I seriously felt like a little 8 year old on their birthday!

I’ve already gone on a 7 mile bike ride (still super nervous about riding in the road, so sticking mostly to bike paths for now) and rode to pick up dinner/grab a few things at the grocery store this weekend…I LOVE IT!!

Yet again, I have the greatest husband ever!

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Caleigh’s Pink and Orange Lollipop Birthday!

This weekend we hosted my daughter’s first birthday party. It was so much fun to plan all of the decorations and get everything ready for the big day. I tried to make all of the decorations myself to save on money…buuuuut, let’s be honest. The cost gets pretty out of control super fast, even with 100% trying to be budget conscious!!

She is too young to be “into” anything, so we decided to go with colors rather than a theme…although I did work in the concept of lollipops a bit!

The colors for her party were pink and orange (as you will see) and it looked so fun and festive…and totally girly!

I’ll let the pictures do most of the talking today…

Caleigh’s First Birthday Party!

Dessert Table…Carrot Cake smash cake and cupcakes and chocolate layer cake with buttercream frosting!

Homemade lollipop sugar cookies as favors

Homemade lollipop sugar cookies as favors

The lollipop cookie favors…from meaghan over at The Decorated Cookie

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Table for the kids - snacks, sippy cups, juice

close up of the kids table - how awesome are those pink and white striped cups?? $1 each at Party City! What a find!

wrapping paper as a table runner, chinese lanterns as centerpiece and BALLOONS (my favorite, and the easiest, decorations!)

First 12 months - A Photo Timeline

 

One year old! (I took pics and had it made into a poster for the party!)

yummy food for the par-tay!

Love her face in this one!

Me and my birthday girl!

enjoying her carrot cake!

opening presents!

I made a quiz with questions about the birthday girl…lift the flap to find the answer!

She had a blast the whole day!

It was an incredible day filled with great friends. I can’t believe my baby girl is over a year old now!

What a year it has been!

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