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Getting it Right…(and triathlon news!)

It’s funny that when I am off track, I rarely post about it.

I’m not sure why, since that was the reason I started this blog in the first place…to work through the tough times on this journey.

Of course the last few days, I have been back on track…

so here I am trying to analyze what was wrong.

 I’m trying to figure out what was different during those few weeks when I couldn’t seem to get it together

and now.

Some things I have noticed that I need to do

in order to feel in control:

1) count calories

sample of part of my day

It is plain and simple. If I do it, I eat what I want and without guilt. I still have a focus on healthy choices, but if I choose to measure out a 1/2 cup of low fat ice cream for dessert, I can. Without guilt.

I hope to someday progress to the point where I can reign myself in without counting calories, but I can recognize that I am not there yet.

So it is a long term goal.

But in the meantime,

counting calories is a must for me.

2) Some type of physical activity in the morning before I sit and eat my breakfast.

It sounds crazy, but if I eat breakfast before I complete my workout, 9 times out of 10, those are the days I typically get off track eating-wise

(disclaimer: this is not counting the days I need to really fuel up for a run or something…I definitely eat something beforehand on those mornings)

For me, this is definitely more symbolic than anything else.

It’s as if I say to myself, ahhh, I can sit and eat my breakfast instead of completing my workout this morning. No biggie.

But the problem is for me, it is a biggie.

It is a sign of giving up on working out for the day.

Not sure why that is…

and again

a long term goal will be to

be able to eat some breakfast prior to exercising and


have that be the kiss of workout-death.

But until that time, early morning workouts are the way its gotta be for now.

The good news is, even when my eating has been off, I have been exercising very regularly, if not every day.

So those are my conclusions for now…but I am sure I will continue to analyze both the good times and bad times in order to continue making progress in the right direction!


Unrelated sidenote:

Here is my “Sweat is Beautiful” tribute to Jen over at Prior Fat Girl:

This was after a VERY HARD 3.1 mile, morning run the other day.

I felt wiped afterwards…but in a good way.

In an I-just-gave-it-everything-I’ve-got kind of way.

And it showed.

I was drenched. 🙂


Oh…and in other news:

I signed up for my first triathlon today!

The entry form has officially been sent in.

I am nervous as all hell.

It is in less than 2 weeks, but I am pretty sure I can do it.


…I just bought a bike this weekend (oh you know, just semi-essential to triathlon training when you haven’t ridden a bike in years!!)

Actually, my husband came home and surprised me with a new bike after work on Friday!

We had been looking at bikes for me together, but the actual buying of the bike and bringing it home to me was totally unexpected! And he went with a nicer bike (a hybrid) than I had even thought we were going to get…so


I seriously felt like a little 8 year old on their birthday!

I’ve already gone on a 7 mile bike ride (still super nervous about riding in the road, so sticking mostly to bike paths for now) and rode to pick up dinner/grab a few things at the grocery store this weekend…I LOVE IT!!

Yet again, I have the greatest husband ever!


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Wrap Up – A week Away

It is hard to get caught up with blogging when you have been away for over a week!

I feel like so much has been happening. I will keep the updates short and sweet, but try to cover everything!

1) I had an absolutely fabulous time on vacation. Seeing my 9 month old baby splashing in the ocean, swimming in the pool, playing with her cousins was awesome!

2) My very first half marathon is 4 days away. Yikes! More on that tomorrow.


3) I did an 11.58 mile run while on vacation. That is by far my longest run to date.

I got the whole family involved (go Team Myrtle Beach!)

Everyone signed up for anywhere from 1 mile to 3 miles and took turns running with me. Most were not runners at all, or at least had not currently been running, so the fact that they laced up their sneaks and joined me was so cute!

I mapped out the run

and did the loop twice.

I really was incredibly touched that everyone got involved and the run felt amazing.

It’s kind of nice having your own cheering/running squad!


4) I took on an Easter Buffet…and won!



We went to El Torito Grill for Easter…just the three of us.

I used to want to go to buffets purely for the excuse to stuff myself until I was ready to puke

and then proceed to have one more glass of chocolate milk and an ice cream sundae.

Not this time.

This time, I approached the buffet with a plan.

 Plate #1: Fresh fruit and a yummy green salad with a mexican style vinaigrette dressing.

Okay, my husband reads this so I have to admit that there were two mini churros on there, too.

Plus a small little portion of a chef’s selection dish that I had no idea what it was.

I still wasn’t sure what it was even after I tasted it so I just picked out a couple of small pieces of chicken and left the rest.

Plate #1 = victory with a little bit of splurge thrown in (those churros were so good!)

Plate #2: one tostada shell, 1/4 cup refried beans, 2 small pieces of chicken with mole sauce and a dollop of sour cream

(yes, I went to a Mexican brunch buffet for Easter…it was different, but yummy. And I was not about to cook an Easter dinner after flying across the country from vacation!)

It was a very small portion. Plus I bypassed all of the rice, cornbread, etc. which in the past I would have filled my plate with.

Plate #2 = victory…delicious victory

Plate #3: oh wait…there was no plate #3!

I stopped at 2! Impossible to believe at an endless buffet, but it is in fact true.

Well, my husband did go back for a dessert plate, so I must admit that I did sneak a third churro haha. They were small!

Overall, I was very proud of myself.

I felt like I filled up on the stuff that was good for me and had a small, normal person size portion of the mexican food.

With a little churros splurge. =)

It was Easter, so I figured I would have normally had a dessert of some type so the churros were ok. I also think it is ok to have something like that if you really truly enjoy the taste and they are worth every calorie.

So often in the past, I have “splurged” on something that I didn’t even like the taste of!


5) I lost 4 pounds last week




I couldn’t believe it either.

…especially since I told my husband I wasn’t going to count calories while we were away, but that I would be mindful of what I was eating.

…especially after we got big ice cream cones one night

(I got no sugar added ice cream but it tasted waaaay too yummy to be that healthy!)

…especially after we ate out at restaurants or ordered take out 6 out of 7 nights we were there.

I guess I just did what I said I was going to do.

I was mindful of what I was eating and splurged while being smart and in control.

It still blows me away that I was able to actually do it.

I figured I could maybe manage to maintain, but never expected a loss.

I’ve been on lots of vacations in my almost 32 years on this earth.

This is the first time making good choices has actually worked!

The funny thing is, I actually did better when I stopped counting the calories. I think it is because I typically check how many calories I have left at night and always try to use them up.

Not knowing how many I had consumed or had left each day made me just rely on hunger cues.

I guess I should trust myself more often!

At the very least, I feel more confident that once I get to my goal weight, I will be able to live a normal life without having to track every bite of food I put into my mouth.


6) There were some minor family issues while on vacation, which I guess are to be expected when you are basically living with close family for 7 straight days and nights.

I was brought back to some old familiar feelings of insecurity and I didn’t like how it felt.

I am still having some residual negative feelings even since we’ve been home and have been pretty down, but I’m trying to be in control of my feelings and not let them affect other parts of my life.

I also realized even more how truly lucky I am to have my husband…who never, ever makes me feel insecure or bad about myself.

It definitely tested me, though, because those feelings were the ones that used to drive me to eat and self sabotage.

It was an small unpleasant reminder of the way I used to be and the challenges I used to face…

and also reminded me that those challenges can creep up at any time.

This time, though, I am more determined than ever to be prepared for those challenges.

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