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My Banana, My Nemesis

It looks like an ordinary banana, but it is my enemy.
(yes, I know it’s very brown…I think they taste the best that way!!)

But this banana stares me in the face the second I put it on my desk in the morning

Until the moment I eat it.

My problem is…typically, if I have access to my food, I polish it off.
Kinda like climbing Mount Everest-
just because it’s there.

So typically if I bring a snack to school it is gone by 8am (I arrive by 7:50).

But this banana is designated as my after school snack…especially on days like today when I’m going to help out with my Girls on the Run team practice immediately after work. I know I’ll be starving when I get home at around 5 if I last ate my lunch at 11:15.

So it is definitely in my best interest not to eat it until 3:00 when I skip out to go to practice.

But it taunts me all day.

So I will consider it a victory

every day

that it is still there at 3:00.

Sounds like a small victory, but for me it’s huge.


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Spoiled Sweet

Yesterday happened to be my birthday…32 years and counting.

Luckily I don’t feel old yet so I don’t mind birthdays. I still consider them fun. ūüôā

Well maybe that is because I am spoiled.

Although I’d like to believe I’m not rotten, just loved…haha.

Two days ago, I received this as an early birthday present from my mom.

Sweet. Totally wanted one and I’m already hooked. Just downloaded my first book (Hillebrand’s Unbroken – awesome so far!)

Then the night before my birthday, (he can never wait until the actual day, he gets too excited haha)

my hubs totally surprised me with this:
This is a 2011 B.O.B. Revolution…it is like the Rolls Royce of jogging strollers (in my husband’s words).

Up til now, we’ve had a $100 dollar “jogger” (I use the term loosely) from Target that was almost impossible for me to run with and at the very best just unenjoyable. When I would go for walks with my moms group, I was infamous for using my Graco snap ‘n go and all I ever heard was how I had to get a B.O.B.

Sure, ok. We’ll get right on that.

They’re only ____ hundreds of dollars.

I should point out that my husband and I tend to be rather frugal for lack of a nicer word.


For him to splurge on this incredible stroller for my birthday is a VERY BIG DEAL.

¬†And a sure sign that he takes my running (and his new ‘like’ of running) pretty seriously…which is pretty cool.

He also gave me these to unwrap first thing yesterday morning:

New running clothes!

I have really needed some new running clothes and particularly capris pants. I won’t wear shorts, but the full length pants have started to feel insanely hot lately (it’s been in the high 80’s!). So hot that I even got out my scissors and cut a full length pair the other day to get by…so I was super excited to have an actual nice pair of running capris finally!

Plus my mom and dad surprised me by sending another amazing gift yesterday:

My new Garmin Forerunner 305!!!

I could not believe that she

(I was gonna say ‘they’ but let’s be real, my mom picks everything out)

got me both the Kindle and the Garmin…it is way too generous…I called her right away to thank her

over and over and over again.

I was so excited that I took my new B.O.B. and my sweet girl out for a run first thing yesterday morning ¬†ūüôā

so I could have a few extra calories last night!

Totally bucking tradition (which usually consisted of some type of fat and calorie laden comfort food meal plus a huge cake or cupcakes for dessert), I chose to go out for sushi.

It was still a treat because I normally just get the super healthy rolls…so I figured I would live on the edge since it was a special day…still no sashimi though.

We had:

Albacore Roll

Baked Spicy Lobster roll

And Popcorn Lobster Roll

So I am totally aware that these are not healthy rolls haha…as you can tell by the picture. Although I did try to pick a lot of the topping off of them (I’d get just a little of the saucy goodness) and eat just the roll. Underneath it was basically a spicy tuna roll, which is a healthier option when you go for sushi.

Plus, we ordered 24 rolls altogether to split and we each only had 8 total. We had half of the popcorn lobster and baked lobster rolls to bring home for Joe’s lunch today.

So it was a splurge, but not like having an enormous helping of spaghetti and meatballs or chicken and biscuits like I’m used to.


Well that is another story. haha

I did want my birthday cupcake.

My favorite place was too far of a drive with a baby up past her bedtime so we went here instead.

I decided picking out one single serving dessert was better than having a whole birthday cake.

After staring through the glass cases for awhile, Joe settled upon the chocolate cake and I chose the red velvet cupcake:

Then we went to pay and saw this by the counter:

 It was as big as his hand!

And I displayed very little self control as my impulse buy turned into this:

I would have been okay with splurging with a cookie and half a birthday cupcake

(although definitely going over what I had planned on having for the night)….

but then my friends came over and surprised me with


(it was made with a new ice cream maker they got…cookies and cream…fudge covered oreos were one of the ingredients…enough said.)

It was the most delicious ice cream I have ever had.

And with the help of my handsome hubs, we ate





Oh well.

It was worth every calorie.

And although I don’t want to get into the thinking of, “It’s ok because it is a special occassion”

I do think it is ok because I rarely splurge like that ever anymore.

And I didn’t make a day of it…bingeing at breakfast, lunch and dinner like normal.

I made healthy choices all day.

Just had a tad too much dessert.

So no guilt today.

Just back to my normal healthy lifestyle.

Like I said, I am super spoiled.

I am super appreciative!

I had the best day!!!


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Amy versus the Banana Bread Muffins

Currently they are in the oven.

Typically this would mean I was preparing to binge.

But not today.

I don’t feel it.

I don’t know if it is a leftover high from my run yesterday.

I don’t know if it is because I have logged and stayed within my calories everyday for the last 2 weeks.

I’m not sure what it is, but I know that…




I should probably back up and explain something here.

I love to bake. I love batter. I love dough. I love cookies, cakes, muffins…you name it.

Anything that goes in and out of an oven is a friend of mine.

Or an enemy as the case may be.

Usually, my MO is that I bake when I am in the mood to overindulge and really binge. Sometimes I do it when I am at a low…but lots of times I do it when I am at a high. And I “test” myself. And always fail. I don’t go into it thinking or saying that I am going to splurge. But somewhere deep in the back of my mind, I know it. And it happens everytime.

And once I start, I can’t stop…I’m like that with just about everything…as evidenced:


But this time feels different.

I actually think I am making these banana bread muffins because they will be a semi-healthy snack to have.

I chose the healthiest ingredients.

I counted out the calories for each carefully measured component.

I intend to have one with a mug of hot cocoa today (its cold and rainy here again – ugh) and wrap and freeze the rest.

I sometimes write this blog hoping that my story will inspire others and I’ll get millions of readers who want to hear what I have to say.

Other times, it is just for me. An outlet. A way for me to write my thoughts about where I am in my own journey. And a place for me to remind myself that I just may be stronger than I think I am.

Today is one of those days.


The timer just went off…here we go.

Bring it on banana bread.


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What a difference a year makes…

It’s been almost a year since my last post, but I’m back…and in a¬†totally different place than where I started!

Approximately one year ago, I started this blog. After only two months of blogging, this happened:


9 months after that, this happened:


And now 3 months later (and present day), here is my beautiful daughter:


Motherhood has been amazing…and I love my new job as a stay at home mom.


the funny thing is, as I go back  and reread my posts from a year ago, as much as I know parts of my life are entirely new, I realize I am






funny, huh?

I guess putting on 40 pounds of baby weight can do that to you! I have already dropped 25 since the delivery, but I would like to take off another 25 to get down to a healthy weight again. (If you notice my math is off, it’s because I put on an extra ten pounds after my wedding, before I got pregnant.) I’ve also learned that “myth” about how losing weight¬†gets harder as you get older is actually true.

Huh.  Who knew?

I have an increased¬†motivation to really conquer my issues now…I really want to be a strong and positive influence on my daughter. If I¬†sneak food, she is going to learn to hide her eating. If I eat to reward or comfort myself, she will learn to use food for the same reasons.¬†If I focus too much on my flaws, my daughter will focus on hers. If I complain about exercise, my daughter may become a couch potato. If I am afraid to fly, my daughter may have the same nerves as she steps onto a plane.

But, on the flip side…

If I exude confidence in who I am, my daughter will believe in herself.

If I eat for nutrition and not for comfort, my daughter will grow up with healthy eating habits.

If I value exercising with my family, my daughter will enjoy being active.


Children do not do what you say…they do what you DO.

If I want her to be healthy…both in terms of her self image as well as physically…then I need to be healthy.

¬†There is more at stake now…and I think that will be the difference.

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Quick Update

So I have been somewhat slacking on the blogging lately…probably because I have been busy…in addition to the fact that I am so new that I don’t have many readers yet. But I want to plug along. I have seen how influential other blogs have been for me, as these individuals document their journey…and I hope to do the same for someone else…

if they ever stumble across this site!


The Best Life Diet by Bob Greene Рsome thoughts

  • It’s been going GREAT! I have never eaten so much yummy food, felt entirely satisfied and lost weight. EVER.


  • I cheated and weighed myself. oops. I have already lost 6 pounds! I was sure that I hadn’t lost any, but was super excited when I saw that it was working!


  • I’ve learned that this diet, for the first month, is about refocusing how you view food and getting into healthy habits. My recommended calorie intake (from their site) was 1800 a day. I adjusted it to 1700 but still…that is waaaaaay higher than any diet has ever recommended for me. Usually it is closer to 12 or 1300! As we refocus our thoughts on eating, I don’t think they want us to feel any sort of deprivation. But the choices I have been making for those 1800 calories (I’m not gonna lie, I’ve had a tough time sticking to 1700 knowing that the site recommended 1800…I’m so bad) have all been incredible, healthy food choices. No junk. I guess at times it can be more simple than I thought! Healthy food can be delicious!


  • The Best Life Breakfasts are HUGE!!! Oh my gosh…the recommended breakfasts are like 350 – 400 calories EACH DAY! But you sort of eliminate the snacking. They recommend one healthy snack a day outside of meals, but pretty much your calories should come from the meals…and the meals are so filling that it works! I am not hungry in between meals at all.


  • I am eating healthy foods, but yummy ones, too! The other night I had a salad loaded with great veggies and then had a small 1 cup side of pasta. I used Barilla plus pasta which is loaded with nutrients. I sauted some cherry tomatoes and basil in some EVOO and then mixed the rotinis in. Then I sprinkled some fresh parmesan cheese in. It was a great side and for once, the pasta didn’t have to be a huge bowl. It felt like a treat! Here is a pic:


Even my husband thought it was delicious!salad pasta

So today I want to try out some new recipes…

Breakfast – Scrambled eggs (Better ‘n Eggs) with chopped cherry tomatoes and chopped mushrooms sprinkled with basil and freshly grated parmesan cheese; 1 yoplait light strawberry yogurt; 1 slice of whole wheat toast with light butter (SEE I TOLD YOU IT WAS A TON OF FOOD!!)

Lunch – Roasted Eggplant and Onion Sandwich with Arugula and Chicken and a small side salad with balsamic vinegar and EVOO


Dinner – Flank Steak with Sweet Potatoes and a small side salad

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Monday Menus

Quick post tonight, but here is the Menu for the week:

Monday – grilled steak and pepper kebabs


Don’t they look so yummy?? They were delicious! I love when my husband grills!

Tuesday – Chili with salad

Wednesday – Cheeseburger Pie

Thursday – Taco Salads

Friday – prepping for the Halloween party!!

So, I posted a couple of days ago about just trying to eat like a normal person, healthy but in moderation…well, I am pleased to report that I have done great!

I feel good. I feel in control. I don’t feel like I am a slave to food.

I am really taking the time to think about what I am putting into my body and trying to make logical decisions. If I want 3 gummy bears, I can have them…no guilt involved. I can’t have an enormous handful.

I am analyzing why I eat when I do…what makes it so hard to listen to that inner voice in my head telling me the right choice to make.

This has been the ultimate test…we got a big bag of dark chocolate covered almonds on Saturday. They are the perfect example of something that is okay for you, possibly could be even considered healthy, in small amounts. Our problem is that we buy a huge bag and eat it in one sitting.

Well, I set out on a normally very dangerous mission…buy a big bag…and




 each night.

Ha! 3…that’s crazy talk!¬† But believe it or¬†not, we’ve been doing it! and it hasn’t been as hard as I thought.

I get the “sweet” that I crave after a meal. But I also ask myself what difference there is for me to eat 20 rather than 3. I have the same taste after 3…the same satisfaction…only I don’t have any of the guilt or sick stomach feeling that hits you when you pound the whole bag! Eureka!!


I think I may be onto something. The real challenge will be…

halloween candy and the yummy food I am going to have at the halloween party. We’ll see.

I think I am up to the challenge.

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